In Matthew 26 the mechanisms that will lead to Jesus’s arrest and crucifixion have been set into motion—like a line of dominos set up before time began. Jesus knows what’s coming, he knows how the disciples will react, and he knows that Judas is planning to betray him. Aware of all that is about to go down, Jesus, after sharing a final meal with them, invites his disciples to join him in the garden of Gethsemane to pray.
I don’t know what they ate, but it seems like it must have been something heavy because even as Jesus began his sorrowful prayer the disciples all fell asleep. Matthew 26:38-43 says,
“38 Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch with me.” 39 And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” 40 And he came to the disciples and found them sleeping.
Jesus knew, from before he took on flesh, that this was where his life on Earth would take him. His ultimate calling was a heavy one, and a calling only he could take on. However, even knowing this we can see the humanity of Jesus shining through. Jesus felt a sense of dread. That sense of great apprehension and fear of something that is unavoidable. Three times he prayed this prayer, and three times he came back to find his disciples, his best friends, asleep. They didn’t know and couldn’t understand that the time Jesus had been telling them about was at hand.
We will all face times when no one can take over our calling. It is something you are called to face even if it is something you dread. As you follow through on your calling, I pray that Jesus prepares your heart. God is with you and there are wonders to be seen on the other side.
May our prayer always be Your most beautiful and perfect will, not ours, be done. Amen.